How much do u love God?

One day, a boy told abuna: "Abuna, i cant stop sinning even when i try my best... it seems like i dont love God enough.. i just cant stop repeating my sins!"

Abuna told him," My son, the problem is not that you dont love God enough, but you dont know how much God loves you. Once u realize his gr8 love for u, u will reject sin at once."

lets look at the 3 disciples: Judas escariot, Peter, and John.

Judas felt like he did not love the Lord Jesus enough, and sold his relationship with Christ at a cheap price.

Peter told the Lord Jesus, how much he loved him, and swore not to betray him even if all the others did. "Lord, I am ready to go with You, both to prison and to death." YET.... he betrayed him 3 times!

However... John (called the beloved) was the only one who was standing at the cross with St.Mary. He was the only one that remained with Christ at the time of pain, even though all the others left.... In the gospel, it never says that John loved the Lord more than all the others did.. BUT instead, it says about John that he was "the disciple whom Jesus loved".

We need to realize God's great love for us, and once we do.. we will be standing with John at the foot of the cross.
Peter said he loved the Lord yet he betrayed him. John did not say he loved Jesus, yet he understood how much Jesus loved him, and that is why he left everything, and remained close to Christ, especially during the time of His suffering.
"We love him, because he first loved us." 1 John 4:19